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This story was illustrated by Isabel Seliger. Seliger is a freelance artist and illustrator based in Berlin. Her work has been published in The New York Times, Süddeutsche Zeitung, Bloomberg and The Atlantic. You can find her on instagram @isabel_seliger.
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